I try not to get angry when people tell me about natural ways to cure bipolar disorder. They have no idea how terrible manic episodes can become.

The more I tried to ignore my manic episodes the more it seemed to manifest. Every episode became worse than the last. Recently after three weeks of not sleeping, I saw a man hovering over my child while he was in bed. I called my son’s father and kept crying. I kept repeating, “I can’t do this, I can’t do this, I can’t do this.” I could feel myself falling into a psychosis and it’s hard to come out once you’re in.

I can’t live my life without pills, but I can’t also be irresponsible and cause disorder to my family. I have to remember that I’m doing this for my son. I stopped letting my bipolar disorder control me, and I need to learn how to accept the life sentence it brings along.

The birth of my son challenged me in ways I never knew I could overcome. I wanted to be the best parent I could be, so I decided to get in shape. I lost forty-six pounds in five months. Exercising requires patience and dedication, but the best feeling for me is having the energy to play with my son. I realized that I loved reaching my own fitness goals and wanted to help others do the same. If it had not been for my son, I would never have decided to apply for a personal training program.

Fitness goes further than just looks and it was my outlet. During times when I felt like crying, I would lift weights, when I felt like self-harming, I would I would sweat it out on the stair master, and if I were stressed out, I would do yoga.

When I workout it’s me against myself, and everything around me fades away. I push my limits because it is the one thing that I can control and it keeps me distracted. Healthcare is a privilege I took advantage of it when I had it.

Every day is a battle, but I get up and get myself moving.


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